Doing wheely's on the John Deere

Wheeley's are for adrenaline junkies who have a strong desire to flip over backwards and have their vehicle/atv/motorcycle/etc.. come crashing down on top of them.....They are for people that have a desire to challenge gravitational authority.....In my personal opinion they are completely scary and unnecessary (while saying this might I mention that my husband went back and forth in front of me on his dirt bike doing wheeley's the other day- my precious boys followed suit)
We've had a lot going on around here- Matt and the boys have been really busy completing projects-  I've had more free time than Matt and the boys so I graciously offered to do some mowing around here- Not the type of mowing that you can use a rider or push for- the type of mowing that required the John Deere.
I understand how to use the 4 wheeler- I also understand how to use the riding lawn mowers.  The only 2 pieces of equipment left are the back hoe and the John Deere Tractor.  I have never stepped foot on the back hoe to learn to drive it and have only mowed with the tractor a handful of times- for just a sec- just for Matt cause he really wanted me to learn how to drive it.
I can now say that I have done a wheely on a John Deer Tractor!
What I have learned this past week during my many hours of mowing is this.......
When you start out in 3rd gear with your RPM's revving at 25 and are on an incline you will do a wheely every time!
I was so shocked when the tires came off the ground-it reminded me of an out of control horse- as soon as those tires came back onto the ground the tractor took off (much like a horse that comes down off of reering and takes off running)- I never even thought to brake cause between my eyes being as big as saucers, my mouth hanging open, and the tractor revving up I didn't know really what to do- as the tractor burrowed up the hill I saw through my dilated pupils a very large branch right in front of me- Luckily it caught the exhaust pipe that sticks up on the front of the tractor and bent it clean down toward me before coming my way- It gave me an opportunity to duck out of the way and come out of my shocked state- I slammed on the brakes and inhaled the exhaust that the pipe was graciously blowing toward me (because of the newly bent exhaust pipe) and gathered my wits!
I hobbled the tractor back to the house and asked Matt if I he would mind fixing the pipe so I could get back to mowing..........He never even said a word :)
I now mow in 2nd gear unless I am going up a hill- then it's of course it's 1st gear with my foot hovering over the brake peddle!
On a side note- I have not used 1 single egg today.  My plan is to make cookies this afternoon but we'll see?
Below are some pictures I took yesterday- I was doing my normal 'check' of the beach and decided to veer off the beaten path and head up the hill just a bit- God's creation is so amazing!

I think the strong wind we have had blew several bird nest's
out of the trees- so glad that there was no babies in it!

My boys cut a trail that runs on the knoll that over-looks
long beach.  A vine like plant started growing and has
taken off over the last 6 months as you will see in this picture and the
picture below- It is a beautiful ride!

I love you Eli Ben-ja-stink!

My Eli....who will be 15 very soon is one of the smartest little chaps I have met- He is especially skilled in the area of knowing exactly how to get on his mom's nerves.  Whether it be we are driving home from school- he is sitting in the back seat- he props his feet up on the consul that separates the 2 front seats and rubs his feet together so that his feet scum comes off and looks like dandruff on the consul- he removes his feet and I happen to put my hand, elbow, or lean against the consul and waa-laa I have Eli's feet scum on my person.
Or maybe when we are sitting on the couch together and I smell something horrible and ask 'WHO FARTED!'- Eli's the first to say 'no'- I keep smelling random whiffs of the same stench and finally in a firm voice tell Eli that He is the one that farted.....He innocently looks at me and say's that he did not fart but has been blowing his breath on me- he strategically could blow his breath from the side of his mouth and direct it my way-
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH Eli Ben-ja-stink!!!!!!!!!
Oh the list could go on-
Along with knowing how to get on my nerves, my Eli is also a pro at making Matt and I so proud of him-  It's indescribable, the feeling that well's up inside of my mom's heart when I hear him say something that is profound and beyond his years with wisdom- or when he does something when he does not know that someone is watching and that something he did was so genuine and kind it brings tears to my eyes.  I had one of those moments today- oh I am always proud of both of my boys- but today was a moment with Eli that signified both his maturity and tugged on my heart that he is indeed growing up.
 It was a small thing- simply that he has a 2 day job on the other side of the hill from us- Because this job is accessed by private ranch roads on both sides of the property he is able to drive himself by way of his dirt bike.  So, on top of driving himself to his job, I also noticed a back pack on his back- He had made his own lunch, packed his own water, and gotten himself out the door without ANY sort of reminder or help- I was not even around when he was doing all of this.  Why does it seem like yesterday that he was a 3 year old that needed help tying his shoes and brushing his teeth.........In the blink of an eye he has grown up-
Eli Ben daddy and I are so proud of you- The boy that you are growing out of and the Young man you are growing in to- God Bless you Sweetie.

just heading out to work

He was waving goodbye- caught the tale end of the wave

One day soon this 'drive away' will
signify all grown up and heading out to face the world on his own.

P.S. boiling 6 eggs for deviled eggs- Also noticed in my original post that I put May as the expiration for the eggs- Nope it is April 11- 97 eggs to go!!  Also, thank you Holly for the coconut cookie recipe, I will be making that hopefully tomorrow.

Pioneering Hawaiian Style

Since moving to the ranch here in Hawaii I have a very rough draft understanding of what pioneer women must have felt like.  Moving to a 'strange to them' land, very far away from their friends and family, isolated, and having traveled to their destination by way of a very bumpy road and steep mountains.

It has crossed my mind no less than one hundred times what these women must have been feeling- and at some very deep level I can describe it- I can relate and I completely and totally admire what they did.

It has been a pioneer journey for our family over the last 22 months- The night we landed in Hawaii I had the strangest feeling......an alone feeling I had never experienced- We were 3000 miles away from 'home' with not one contact on the island we moved.  My friend Holly (who lives a couple islands over) was my only 808 contact- We were starting from scratch.

Everything was different- EVERYTHING! Traded subdivision life for ranch life- Traded Power from a power company for a generator and solar- Traded cell phone reception for a sketchy phone line that only works when it has not rained (when it rains hard, the phone wire that runs on top of the ground floats in the rain water and is fuzzy at best)- Traded easy access to friends and family for an over-abundance of time with Eli, Ryan, Matt, and Oklie- Traded air conditioning for balmy humid Hawaiian days w/o any sort of air conditioning-  Traded a packed social life for complete isolation- Traded a paved 2 lane subdivision street with street lights, curb, and gutter for a windy, straight up, straight down, pot hole ridden, over-whelming 5 mile road............traded it all, just for now, in the name of ADVENTURE!!

A deep sense of accomplishment along with a deep sense of longing must have graced the minds of those pioneer women.......accomplishment in the fact that they had made it to their destination and survived- but longing because leaving everything you've ever known- the comforts, smells, sights, feeling of belongings, knowing where you are going is on your mind everyday.

Would I go back and do it all over again- Oh heck yeah......but would I go back and re-live a single day over- not even one.  Not because I don't appreciate the journey but because as any pioneer know's- you hold tight to the ground already covered- it wasn't easy walking getting where you are.  Each step takes courage, concentration, and determination.................

This picture was taken from the plane when we came to check out our job- We
had never even stepped foot on or seen our island before- I remember my thoughts were a mixture of
excitement and sheer terror at the thought of moving here- I grabbed my camera just before the plane
was going to land and visually captured a picture that will be forever burned into my memory-

P.S. Used 4 eggs for breakfast (made potato's O'Brian with bacon and scrambled eggs- thanks for the idea when I stayed at your house Holly!) and 3 eggs for blueberry/sour cream cheese cake- 103 to go!!

10 Dozen eggs and English Muffins made with Gold Dust

Went grocery Shopping on Sat. and for the first time since moving to Hawaii I bought English Muffins.  The English muffins were a must because I am making Eggs Benedict 3 times this week- The boys are on Spring Break so we will have extra time for breakfast.  I was racing around our local Super Market looking for the English Muffins mentally mulling over in my brain what other grocery items I would need from the particular store I was in.  I saw the English Muffins stacked in with some other bread and grabbed one package- one package here contains 6 whole muffins.  As I was wheeling my cart away I happened to look down at the price tag..................$4.79..............I had that sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach- I was confused, dazed, and disorientated- what should I do?  Is it over the top to spend $4.79 on 6 English muffins?  Before putting them in my cart I whipped the package around to see if one of the top ingredients was 'gold dust':)
After my English muffin experience (which I did buy) I checked out and went on to Costco to finish grocery shopping.  I had a full cart by the time I got to the refrigerator section- one of the last thing I needed was an 18 count eggs- I noticed after the English muffin experience I was looking at the price of everything- I stood and looked at the price of the 18 count eggs compared to the 5 dozen- It was quite a bit cheaper to just buy the 5 dozen- I was not sure if we could go through all 5 dozen before they expired (May 11 April 11) but thought I would give it a whirl.  Having not a lot of experience buying 5 dozen eggs I grabbed what I thought was 5 dozen- checked out, came home and unloaded groceries.  As I went to put my 5 dozen eggs in the fridge I took a REALLY close look at the box of eggs- First off I saw that the box I thought was 1 was in fact 2- Oh My Gosh- If I had 2 boxes of eggs that meant that I had 2 five dozen boxes of eggs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10 dozen eggs x 12= 120 eggs
30 days (cause of expiration) to eat 120 eggs
120 eggs divided by 30 days= 4 eggs per day

CAN WE DO IT?
Sun. morning used 4 eggs to make Eggs Benedict plus 1 egg to make a pan of brownies
5 down 115 to go.

Will keep you posted

Look at all those eggs in my refrigerator 

Switching from Tsunami's to Peacocks- at least for today

The last couple of day's have been such a serious post I thought I would grace this blog with a light hearted story- gotta mix it up a little bit... right?

It began almost right after we moved here.....
The ranch we work at has an easement going through another ranch to get to our ranch- on this other ranch tours are offered because it is home to several interesting things (movies, zip lines, and ATV adventures).  Either at the start of a tour or an end of a tour (I'm not sure which cause I've never taken the tour) people get to stop and feed animals- an example of some of the animals being fed would be wild pigs, chickens, and PEACOCKS.  All the animals hang out in an area about the size of a large bedroom waiting for the tours to come by and feed them-

These 2 pictures are compliments of my brother and sis in law- This is
the 'area' I am talking about 

My brother Levi feeding the pigs 

We pass through this certain area at least 2 times a day (coming and going from the ranch).  All of the animals clear out of the roadway when they see our vehicles coming because they know that we are not stopping to feed.  That is they all move out of the way except one............

He is one of the most beautiful animals I have ever seen- I am in complete AWE of all the colors on his tail feathers and body-  The problem with him is that he refuses to drop those beautiful feathers and move out of the way (please notice even in this picture- where is he standing?? Right in the middle of the road)- He is so ANNOYING!  I roll my car to a stop and try to nudge him out of the way by getting closer and closer- sometimes I honk but most of the time I squeak by him on the side going partly in the ditch area to get around.     Not to long ago I was trying to be a little firmer with him- show him who's boss- for pete's sake my vehicle could squash his beautiful body in a sec.  I pulled up really close to him- laid on the horn and stayed persistent.  He decided that he would move- but in his timing- never dropping those tail feathers, he calmly and very slowly scooted sideways with one foot touching the other (baby steps) off the road.  By the time he was far enough over so that I could drive straight and not swerve around him I could have been 5 minutes down the road.
I'm telling Matt about all of this- we are headed out and coming to the place where the peacock 'struts his stuff'.  I notice that the peacock is exactly where he normally is but I also notice that Matt is not slowing down- nor is he starting to veer around this beautiful peacock.  'Watch this Steph, I'll bet I can get him to move.' Matt's telling me as we are closing in on those tail feathers fast.  You guys, I closed my eye's and cringed expecting to hear a thud and see peacock feathers flying everywhere.  We pass by and I don't hear the thud so I open my eyes and physically turn around in the truck we are in and look out the rear window.  First I notice a Freaked out peacock standing on the side of the road- he looked very strange....naked would be the right word.
He had managed to get off the road just in time- in getting off the road he must have dropped his tail feathers- which when peacocks drop their tail feathers they are like a train on a wedding dress- they cascade behind them.  When he dropped his tail feathers Matt ran over them.  Perfectly lined up on the ground by the peacock was a wad of tail feathers.  We laughed so hard- mean.....um.....maybe a bit but still one of the funniest memories living here in Hawaii.
It was a good 6 months before his tail feathers were back in.  We would see him trying his feathers and for awhile they were just stubby sticks- As time passed they grew longer and longer.  I didn't have the heart to take his picture.  I am happy to say that he is completely back to normal.  I am also happy to say that he has never been in the road again!

Tsunami Warnings- getting ready to evacuate- UPDATED FRI MORNING!

- 10:11 p.m. Thurs. March 10, 2011: The Pacific Tsunami Warning Center has issued a Tsunami Warning for the Hawaiian Islands.

I decided to blog while I am waiting to evacuate our house. The Tsunami Warning was issued due to a large earthquake in Japan that may send a Tsunami to the Hawaiian Islands.  I'm going to blog my way through this cause honestly.....I look forward to reading it after this is all over :)  If my writing comes across as babble it's because I am going to keep this real and raw and not edit after I finish- So bear with and I will take you on this journey with me.

For those of you who have not been to visit us here in Hawaii we live right on the ocean- we can not see the ocean from our house because of a small knoll in the way but what we lack in sight we make up for in sound.  It has been my chronic habit to sleep with a second source of noise because frankly, hearing the waves crashing freaks me out.

Our weather here tonight is partly cloudy and a bit breezy- We just filled our vehicle with gas (from jugs here at the ranch), the boys have packed a few things, and I am getting ready to grab what I consider the things I can not live without: make-up, chi flat iron, and Coco Chanel perfume........no just joking!  I'm going to be bringing a bin of keep sakes that I store under my bed, Oklie, my boys, and some food/water.  We have our cell phone's charging and our local news (by way of TV) buzzing.

Poor Matt has a horrible cold- took NyQuil and is snoring soundly by me- such peace from my man.  I will be waking him up as it get's closer to midnight.

Our plan tonight is to evacuate about midnight (Hawaiian Standard Time) and head to the top of the hill (see This Blog Post).  We will stay at the top of the hill, listening to the news by way of our car radio until we get the 'all clear'.  A positive to going to the top of the hill is I may get to hang out with Kelly- she is one of the Trust Member's daughter-in-laws that is visiting the ranch right now who I've enjoyed getting to know.  She will obviously have to evacuate also- so Kell- wanna hang at the top of the hill?

As I watch the news on the Tsunami that hit Japan my heart just aches for the people.  May God Bless and keep the people who are affected by the earthquake and tsunami.  Our news caster on KHNL can not get in touch with his father who lives in Japan- I can not even imagine.  Our news is announcing to limit our calls on our cell phones because of heavy traffic on the lines.  Last year when we had the Tsunami Warning I remember my cell phone not working (It would get a busy signal when trying to call out).  The estimated arrival time of the first projected wave is 3:07 pm-

10:40 P.M. I am going to sign off for a bit- will post another blog update soon

P.S.- Just learned that Kauai, Hawaii will be seeing the Tsunami first.

Thank you so much Lord Jesus that you have this complete situation under control.  I lift up every single person affected by this.  I also ask for strength and wisdom for all of the people both here on Hawaii and in Japan.  I ask for peace- no matter what happens.  I trust in you and Love you Lord Jesus.
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11:55 p.m.-

Checking back in....in the last hour the news has reported that there were 3 small earthquakes on the Big Island (Hawaii)- the largest of the quakes being 4.5- They do not believe that it has anything to do with the earthquake in Japan.  From what I could understand the earthquakes were centered in an area that see's frequent earthquake activity due to one of the volcano's.

Matt's still sleeping soundly so I think I'm going to wait to wake him up until 1:00 a.m.- the tsunami is still scheduled to hit at 3:07 a.m.-  Our News Casters are assuring us that they believe a tsunami will be hitting (that it is not a 'maybe' anymore)- I think they say they believe from the data they are receiving from the buoy's reading out in the ocean the wave it will be about 2 Meters high or converted to feet- 6 ft.(http://www.staradvertiser.com/news/breaking/117783848.html)

I keep hearing that Waikiki Hotels are (Oahu) evacuating their guest's up- meaning that they are going to higher floors in the hotel instead of higher ground. That just settles weird with me. I think I would prefer higher ground as opposed to swirling water around me as I watch from a man made structure- I don't know, our situation, living so remote we do not even hear the tsunami sirens plus being right on the ocean may settle weird with the guests standing on the 6th floor of their hotel in Waikiki watching the tsunami swirl around them.

The News Caster that reported earlier he could not reach his father who lives in Japan (his father lives 50 Meters from where the earth quake happened) still can not reach his dad.  He said that he is starting to get concerned.  The good news is that his dad lives on high ground so probably was not affected by the tsunami- but may have been affected by the earthquake.

I will give one more post before we head up the hill- signing out for now
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March 11, 2011-12:45 a.m.

Thank you so much to all of our friends and family and our Trust Facilitator who have called both from the Main Land and from Hawaii to let us know about this Tsunami Warning- It is so so so so nice to know that you've got our backs :)
I will not have access to the internet again until after the projected Tsunami has hit Hawaii.
Of course I am optimistic that the tsunami will not cause damage- If, in fact, it does create more damage than projected please know (this is especially for our friends and family) that we will be on high ground and completely safe.  Also, if for some reason you can not reach us via cell phone- We will call as soon as the lines open up and we get reception.
All the estimations for this Tsunami are the same- set to hit Kauai at 3:07 a.m.- If you are looking to follow what is going on I would recommend either the local Hawaiian station KGMB or The Star Advertiser

I'm bringing my computer with me and will continue this blog as things unfold- will post as soon as I have internet access again
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2:45 am

Sitting at the top of the hill (have been gabbing with Kelly!!)- Getting news in that at the Mid Way buoy the wave measured 6 ½ feet.  The good news is that the wave was supposed to hit Guam before it hits us and it has not hit yet.  People in Guam are a little nervous to resume normal life because of the strong aftershocks still hitting Japan.

Weather up here is nice.  Still just light cloud covers but thank goodness no rain.  We watched a cruise ship head out of port- fully lit.  We are assuming that is was going out to sea to ride out the wave- I consider this equivalent to going ‘up’ in a hotel instead of going to higher ground- Thank you very much I will just stay here in port before I would step foot on a cruise ship during a tsunami (I don’t care if it is safer).

My boys have a full blown bed set up in the back of our car.  Unfortunately they are not sleeping but instead annoying each other and fighting- boys- enough already!

I have a consistent mixture of flying bugs landing on my screen and even one smashed on it- gonna sign off until after the exact time the Tsunami is supposed to be hitting.

3:06 am

You should hear all the tsunami sirens going off as the time the wave is supposed to hit is so close.  The radio is saying that the wave has not hit as of yet- the 3:07 am that it is supposed to hit (right at this minute) is only a estimate not an ‘actual’ time.

The biggest thing on my mind right now is the poor people in Japan who have had so much devastation- And from what I hear on the radio, Japan is having strong aftershocks-

3:40 am

It is weird that it is completely pitch black- not being able to see the water and relying on the radio and news cast’s that friends and family are watching.  Right now, from our radio announcer, we are hearing the first wave has hit Kauai but it was not as big as what they had thought.  My friend Deb just text and said that the news is saying the wave measured .5 Meters at Pearl Harbor- I am thinking that .5 Meters is about 2 feet?  The radio is playing ‘red red wine you make me feel so fine…’ The bugs are still crawling all over my screen- and my calm husband is sleeping again……..Geez babe, how much Nyquil did you take J

6:25 am

The sun is not quite coming up but dawn is breaking……….LIGHT!!!! There is something about being able to see what’s going on-  I can’t quite see down to the beach we live on and have not seen the news or been on the internet since 12:45 am- but from updates I have gotten from family and friends and from the constant updates that the local radio station is giving I understand that our island is still getting small tsunami waves-  A gentleman called in about an hour ago and said that a wave came in and covered a parking lot-

I am not going to harp on the obvious but it’s been a long night.  I am grateful I am not homeless having to sleep in my car cause this just sucks-  My knees have been jammed into my steering wheel and I ended up putting my pillow on the ground and wrapping my feet in it cause I am freezing (it’s in the 60’s here). 

Just getting in info that the Big Island just reported a fairly large wave hitting the island?

Will check back in with this post in awhile…Tired, feeling a bit sorry for myself, but feeling worse for Japan

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7:45 am

Just got down graded from a Tsunami Warning to a Tsunami Watch- going home

Ran by the beach (Bath tub) down here at the ranch- It's just weird- The waves can't seem to make up their mind what they want to do.

It's kind of unsettling being this close to the beach- The nice thing is I'm completely tired so I won't dwell on the weirdness for to long before I fall asleep.  I took some pics that I will post later- 

Thank you so much everyone for the prayers.

Goodnight

First Light 3/11/11- This is the view from where we evacuated to

This is one of the beaches on the ranch- If you look close you will see
how far out the water is- It receded this far in a matter of 60 sec,  I
personally have never seen the tide out like this before.

This is the other side to the pic above

I shot this pic about a minute after shooting the original one above-
Show's how far the waves are coming in after receding

Showing the waves coming back in after receding- I noticed that the fire depart.
helicopter was checking out the waves as I was shooting this picture- They were to the right
so are not visible in this pic

Another beach here at the ranch- The water reached past the green
vegetation you can see on the right hand side.  SO MUCH DEBRIS!

This pic was taken about an hour ago (1:20 Hawaiian Time) and shows
not only the debris washed up but also how far the tide is still out....is this normal??

A closer look at how far the tide is out.

The water went to the vegetation

It's hard to see in this pic but this area is usually a beach area- The water
has a current equivalent to a strong stream- The waves that washed in this morning went up past
the embankment and into the trees- My dog Oklie was completely fascinated with all the water. 

Showing the 'strong stream' area from a different angle- If you notice the tree's in the
background, the water was up in those trees.

3/12/11- I did some checking to find out anymore information on the newscaster's dad that lives in Japan that could not be reached-  I could not find anything on KHNL's website regarding it so I am assuming that he was able to get into contact with his dad after all.  If I hear anything different than this I will make sure and post.

Facebook Favorites

I was going through files on my computer yesterday and came across a folder titled 'facebook notes'- As I saw the title I remembered that Several Years ago something called 'Notes' was going around on facebook.  In a 'Note' I was tagged in I was given the following instructions:

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.  At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.
(To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your home page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)


I LOVE LOVE LOVE reading stuff like this about people and after completing my 25 things (see below) I tagged a bunch of my friends- I would have to say that this was one of my favorite 'facebook' things I've done- Although I would say equal to this in my list of favorite is facebook's 'Typing Wars'!! I used to compete with my cousin Megan until she beat me so many times I think she lost interest!

As I scanned over my list I realized that all these years later I would still describe myself about the same- some of the statistics would be different (More Beth Studies, More flying miles, I still miss my friend Nat and Christy, Have spent WAY more money on my little Oklie, and I don't think I currently have 50 pairs of shoes as the salt air and constant humidity makes them rot out or rust- an accurate number would probably be 30).  My heart is filled with joy when I look at #4 and I think of the fact that we are pursuing adoption-

1. I wear size 12
2. I am allergic to nuts and shell fish
3. I am passionate about any and all emotional issues
4. If I could, I would have another baby
5. I have dyed my hair since I was 11
6. I hate loud noises
7. I own probably 50 pairs of shoes
8. I have shopped in Seattle, Los Angeles, New York City, San Fransisco, Scottsdale AZ, and Portland in the past year and a half and have loved every minute of it!
9. I have started and completed 6 Beth Moore Bible Studies-
10. The Lord delievered me from my fear of flying on an airplane- didn't step foot on one for 10 years- and in the past 3 years have flown over 100,000 miles :)
11. I love being a mommy and wife- I truly could not image my life with out my 3 boys!
12. I love movies like 'bring it on' or any cheesy dance type movie- I usually beg Matt or Eli to watch them with me.
13. I had a horrible relationship with my real dad- we were able to make ammends 2 years ago- Praise God!!!!
14. I have a phobia of being stung by bees- I am always afraid that my throat is gonna shut off- I have had my sis in law Rhonda watch her watch for 20 minutes and watch me breath when I have been stung- so embarrassing-
15. I miss my friend Nat- our lives took different paths and I know it is the best for now- but still miss her terribly (she's not on facebook- so no browny points for me)- I also miss my friend Christy- it's just not in the cards to be able to hang out right now- but someday..........................
16. my dog Oklie is such a blessing- she's a money pit (I have spent over $1000.00 on her- between buying her, boarding her when we are gone, shots, etc...) but I would not trade not having her for being $1000. richer-
17. I pray everyday that my boys will have character and truly have a passion and love people. One of my biggest fears is that they will not know how to love with their hearts-
18. One of my biggest regrets is that I did not show the friends I loved that I loved them- I kept my guard up and did not let them in- to scared of getting hurt- I over do it now (sorry my good friends :)
19. I admire my friend Bonnie spirit for life- she is the only girl I know who would chase a shop lifter and tackle him- the list could go on- Thanks Bonnie K for showing me your sweet/tough spirit- I will forever be grateful-
20. I admire that my sister Jodi does not try to take on the world- she is content to just be a mom-
21. I often wonder if I am normal or abnormal- does anyone else vacuum your house everyday?
22. I want to be a grandma just like my mom is to my boys- and I pray my kids let me be-
23. I thank the Lord for the 2 babies I have in heaven- but wish I could have had them here too
24. Never mind this one :)
25. I have to hold my hands up and submit my life to God pretty much every day cause I am so strong willed I always want things my way- God is trying to get it through my thick head that His way is sooooo much better- Thank you Jesus!
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